My heart aches

Wow, I really need to blog more...

So last week I had my OB appointment. I am currently 12 weeks. I gained one pound since my last appointment---YAY! I was terribly sick with a sinus infection, head cold, and whatever else you want to add to that that can make you MISERABLE! So he gave me a Z-pac! 5 days later I feel pretty good! He said the baby's heart rate sounded really good considering how ill I was. I think the actual day of my appointment I had hit rock bottom...not good.

So all in all, baby is sounding good and we go back in a month.

On the way home from dance yesterday, we stopped to get gas. I left the girls in the car while I was pumping the gas and went I got back in Madalyn was all upset. I didn't even need to ask her what was wrong, she blurted it out to me! She was furious that Loraly didn't remember Paul! Loraly was only 3 when he died. But Madalyn was talking about how in kindergarten and first grade that she didn't have any friends, except Paul. And that she missed him and wished he was still here for her to play with and be friends.

Sophie has not been feeling well since the weekend. So on the way to dance yesterday, I decided to see if the doctor could fit her in. We got her an appointment, dropped Madalyn off at dance class, and headed to the Doctor. Loraly asked me if we were only going for Sophie. She asks this everytime we go to the doctor... So I told her yes, and she started asking questions. She asked if Madalyn ever had accidents in the bed. I told her yes every kid does sometime. See, Loraly is 5, but occasionally still has an accident. We keep a mattress pad under her and that saves me from washing sheets sometimes EVERYDAY. So anyway, she asked me if I would talk to the doctor about why she still has accidents and if he could help her... Wow, big words for a little girl! I didn't talk to him yesterday because I didn't want to embarrass her, but will do so next time I am there.

(I also forgot to post that the Friday before Valentine's Day, Sophie had 4 one year molars pop through!)

My heart breaks for all my girls yesterday... from a sick baby, a little girl missing her best friend, and another little girl wanting to be helped.